instead of making the traditional

LONG list

of resolutions and improvements of myself this new year

i am going to try to accept the choices i make and believe that the choice will serve me, whether i can see it presently or not.

i sometimes cringe when people comment on an “improvement”…

“wow! you seem….”
calmer

happier

thinner

smarter

(fill in your own blank)

it is not that i do not cherish praise, because trust me i do….its just that i want to be accepted in all parts of my process.

(or perhaps i need to accept me in all parts of my process.)

i am so not finished growing yet. in fact, i don’t ever want to be finished. i want to keep: searching loving experimenting painting laughing traveling examining questioning caring watching daring exploring listening hugging forgiving meditating

i don’t need to improve. there is nothing wrong with me or you right now. its just a matter of choice. if something is not sitting right, make another choice. if you used words that did not work, choose other words next time.

i am learning to see that life gives us many chances.

the tides always flow in and out. the sun and the moon alternate. no matter how much of a jackass i act like at times someone is always willing to give me a smile.

what will i choose today?

it is much more than a new year…

it is a brand spankin new day.

thank god.

peace,

xo