nothing much to say today…
just wanted to make you smile.

did it work?

now you see….
being stuck in bed isn’t so bad when you have
this little honey bun as a bed buddy
and the entire 5 seasons of sex and the city.

you get what i am throwing out?

i know, i know…
this is very quickly becoming a blog about
delilah the wonder cat.

she is just this close to
having a blog of her own.

oh dear.

would you people believe that i was
not even a cat person before delilah?

funny how life will change you like that.

i was saying to justin last night
how horrible it was that someone just
threw delilah out like yesterdays garbage.
i can’t get past that.

for those of you just jumping in,
delilah is a stray kitty…

she found our friend and fellow
cat lover mike first, wearing a
chewed out old red collar and
nothing but skin and bones.

then he gave her to us.

anyway,
justin’s response was,
“well, thats one theory….”

i was all wait what why
and he said:

“i think delilah escaped.
she chewed her collar that
was probably tied up and she left.”

i don’t know why,
but i had been making her a
victim all this time.

she is much more of a survivor
than a victim,
why didn’t i see this before?

and so,
my point being…

you, yes you,
can escape from anything that
is not nourishing your soul right now.

whether it be a job that robs your joy,
saying yes when you mean no,
negative people,
an unkind partner,
patterns that no longer serve you…

you, beautiful being,
can choose to escape.

there is no rope that
you have to chew your way out of.

you have legs
and can use them for good.

maybe this is too simplistic
for some…
trust me, i get the other side too.

i am one of those peeps
who has stayed in crappy situations
because:

something might change.
someone might change.
and really, its not SO bad when you
look at it.

but nothing ever did.
and i blamed everything
and everyone who i thought
was raining on my parade…

but hey-
i was the one still hanging out.

another thing-
every time,
not most of the time,
every time,

i decided to stand on my
own two feet and make a shift,
something completely magical
and wonderful happened to support
my decision.
its true.

dear ones,
you get this one, one
magical life…

why settle for things that
don’t make your spirit sing?

choose love.
choose trust.
choose faith.

i believe in you.
i believe in your story,
your vision, your dream.

and thats all there is to it.

so, i got sick of being sick,
and ventured out on friday night
with my favorite blue scarf…
which quickly landed me back in bed.

man oh man.

i shall return soon peeps-
until then,
here are 3 things that have
been making me grin:

*this fabulous girl that dreamergirl
introduced me too.

*burning these divine candles from my friend karin’s shop.

*and thinking how cute delilah would be doing this beside
me while i create.

thank you to all the peeps who sent me
get well wishes.

you make me oh so happy.

be back soon folks…

hi folks*

have a few new items in the etsy shop-
these cute little mermaid cards.

they come with treats too.
chocolate treats.

i even made pretty ta-tas
for the mermaids
cause i am crafty like that.

hopefully soon i will have
some new stuff to show you-
i have been battling the flu
for the past couple of days.

don’t know what my body
is purging but this is a doozy,
i tell ya!

been watching lots of office reruns
and cuddling with cranky cat.
so really, life is not so bad…

i will write more
when i am not doped up
on nyquil.

peace out-

there was a time in my life where
i would abandon myself at the first sight
of stormy waters.

like a shitty day,
or a harsh word,
or a disappointment of some sort.

i often indulged in the unpleasant things-
practically had them over for dinner…
because it just made more sense
that i deserved more bad than good.

it was just where i felt more comfortable
at that time.

luckily, these days it feels more authentic and natural
to walk towards the good stuff
when life throws me lemons.

like the beautiful man
and the cranky cat
my sweet faced little students
my tiny space for creating
bins full of art goodies
friends with compassionate ears
and arms full of love
good health days
my quirky cottage
my job
and being able to visit
the sea every day.
you know, things i should not take for granted
but sometimes do.

i know it is an effort to make this shift,
especially if you have been caught in a
web of despair for so long…

but it does get a bit easier
each time,
and i would like to offer some
hope to anyone who feels like
things are never going to change.

its not like i am a pro,
there are plenty of days i find it tempting
to bury myself in a pile of negativity…

but, the truth is,
i have way more good days than bad,
and really believe that under all my bullshit
and messiness that
i am still a good person.

so are you.
we all do the best we can
with what we know and have.

ok, so i don’t say
“i love you,” to myself every day…
however, i can now say
without blushing or giggling
that i am a pretty cool chicka.
and for me this is
a huge, huge improvement…

thank you friends for all your wonderful suggestions for my feel good mix. you guys are great! its nice to know others move out of their funky-ness with tunes and a little dancing too. i love that it does not take much to transform out of a bad space.
*
i have not written about delilah lately-my master zen teacher. my furball of wisdom. my wacky yoga doing kitty.

ok-have you all seen other cats do this?

not very ladylike. all this was done in the light of day, in
the middle of the sidewalk outside our cottage.

oh-and if you stare at her while she does this, she will
stop and give you the look…as if you have walked
in on her naked. a look that says:
do you mind??

the look:

she is a quirky one, thats for sure.

a few months ago she began acting cranky,
even for her.

it is understandable given
the fact that she is a found stray-
and showed up with a beaten
up old collar one day.

this whole love thing is
still new to her.

she has gotten
a lot better.

but, even so-
all of a sudden she began to get angry-
and started yelling at us.

usually, we would get a sweet little
meow which is code for two things:
i want a treat or i want to go out.

but this god awful sound was different.
it was a growl.

it was a i dislike you people much
sound.

sometimes she would enter the
bedroom just to screech, and then
turn around and leave. nice.
especially at 2 in the morning.

we began to wonder what happened to our delilah girl.

touch made her angry, talking made her angry.
after awhile we started taking it personal.

yes, the cat actually began hurting our human feelings.
regardless,
we gave her love anyway.
maybe even more than usual.
we started to accept that was just
where she was at,
and tried to love her from there.

justin started calling her my zen teacher.

i am a girl that likes to feel in control,
and well, delilah is a wild one.
completely unpredictable.

i learned to just go with it.

when she wanted to cuddle on that rare,
rare occasion, i took it.

it was almost always when i was on my way out,
or just coming home…

and there she would be, flopping on the ground
at my feet wanting her belly rubbed.

no matter how tired or rushed i was,
this energy always put me in a peaceful mood.
i was in the moment,
listening to the waves,
the birds chirping,
the windchimes,
the shuffle of surfers walking
up and down the street.

my shoulders would drop.
my face would relax.

i was as present as i
could possibly be.

i consider it her little gift
to me.

recently justin, who is not only cute but smart-
figured out it was her flea medicine.
we had switched brands, and the new
brand did not work as well.

(and all this time i thought she was pissed
that we stopped giving her roasted chicken.)

pretty soon, she started being cozy,
cozier than we had ever seen her.

she is even sleeping in the bed now…
after sleeping outside for weeks and weeks.
of course she chooses to sleep in between our
heads, and unfortunately for justin, often on his head.

thats our delilah.

we don’t complain,
and are relieved to have figured
out the problem.

who knew, after all this time,
she was just uncomfortable-
and was trying to tell us.

as i type this i look at her snoozing
beside me on the bed,
in a little ball of softness.
she looks perfectly content.

i did not know i could
ever be so attached to a
swirl of fluff and whiskers.
but i am.

she teaches me the beauty
of just being…

and acceptance.

cats are so cool like that.

do your pets teach you anything?
feel free to leave a link to your favorite pet picture.

i am all into that mushy animal cooing thing.

hi peeps*

today i have a request from you:
i am in search of some new, happy tunes.

for some reason i have found myself
in a little funk this week-
nothing big or life threatening.
just not feeling fully myself.

i love to work and listen to my ipod-
my mood totally transforms.

i can groove to anything from
a little snoop to some rem,
and am pretty open to anything.

so if inspired,
please share your favorite tunes
that get you out of a rotton mood
and into a dance routine in your living room.
it would be much appreciated.
thanks in advance, and happy friday!
:)

even under the best of circumstances,
and the best of days….
*
we all take a few steps back
from where we would like to be.
*
i am finding the trick to
getting back into yourself
is finding compassion
in the human-ness,

and the needs that connect us.
we all want to be loved,
and we all want to be understood.
*
so tender soul, forgive yourself already.
because tomorrow is new day,
and you have the gift to choose again.
*
to choose from love.
*
life is nifty like that.
*
this is what comforts me on those shady days.
that and those little german gummy bears..

to cut the strings of ego
to feel joy again and again
to leave room for goodness
to chose another way of being
to be free of suffering
to have a happy body
to see the magic
to evolve
to breed kindness
to manifest
to believe
and let go of being right already.

there is my list…
so why are you letting go today?

***

i just read a blog post from my lifecoach sara that seems to go hand in hand with my thoughts today.
thought you all would enjoy her wise bits.

i just posted a new item in my etsy shop.
these letter rocks are really fun!
and its kinda temping to write bad words with.
not that you would do that.

happy weekend everyone!